24 Septembre 2006

Note to self: Berocca Coke, Dark Chocolate and Coffee are not food groups and are not the basis of a healthy diet.

23 Septembre 2006

I AM NOT A F*#@ING BOOTY CALL!!!!!!!!!

22 Septembre 2006

I am no a booty call!!!

Went out tonight, shouldn't have because I finished at 21h30 and have to be back in town tomorrow by 6am.

21 Septembre 2006

20 Septembre 2006

Until I get Gesnes back I am driving the ute to town and work. As it has a cassette player I can listen to my old tapes while I drive, I dug them all out yesterday Zazie, Notre Dame de Paris, Swarm, Take That... of course Noir Desir and OMG Louise Attaque another of the great musical influences of my lycée years.

19 Septembre 2006

Got out my old cassette of Noir Desir, haven't listened to it in years. Just looking at the list of songs and the music comes back to me. "Un Jour en France"; "A Ton Etoile"; "Ernestine"; "Comme Elle Vient"; "Prayer for a Wanker"; "Les Persiennes"; "L'Homme Presse"; "Lazy"; "A la Longue"; "Septembre en Attendant".
How many times did I hear Karim belt out these songs? I'm not sure exactly what their band played the first time I met them in the castle, I can just picture Karim at the mic with his electric guitar strapped over his shoulder, wearing jeans and his greyey woolen jumper and being in awe of his voice.
The cassette has an old saturated sound to it but that doesn't matter, it reminds me of rehearsals in the hall or Karim's garage, gigs, camping and the "Festival de la Musique" where Tonio wouldn't get off the stage to let the other bands set up and rehearse in the afternoon, too intent on playing the dreaded Metalica song he loved.

Check out the video clip for "Un Jour en France" here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bAGSNUPzwWc (I've roughly translated the lyrics on Gooey Blog)

18 Septembre 2006

A View From the Edge.

The grass may be brown, the water may be muddy, but the sun is shining, a cool breeze is blowing and the birds are chirping merrily.
Everything is peaceful like a Sunday afternoon, only it's Monday and unlike myself most people are hard at work probably waiting for their lunch break.
Even the cars are calm and amazingly the motors blend into the sound of the day, even the odd rickety trailer doesn't disturb the peace, but adds depth like the birds.
It's 12 noon and the cars seem to have picked up speed, the day is halfway gone, time to rush towards the future.

Gesnes has gone in for repairs today and will be gone for at least a week. It has been merely hours since we parted and I miss him already. I have an insatiable urge to jump in and just drive. We went for a trip yesterday and found ourselves at Lake Broadwater. As we neared the boat ramp area a large open space came into view on the left, perfect in it's flawlessness, a flat plain with with short green grass spread evenly across it's entirety. As we pulled in it became apparent that this was Lake Broadwater. A reminder of the water shortages we are experiencing in the Darling Downs. The land has been claimed for the moment by Kangaroos and grass until the water returns.

My new goal in life: Conquer the Speed Ball

I attended a Circuit Breaker class at the gym this morning and finally realised my dream of hitting a punching bag. It was so awesome. I know it's kind of a silly dream but for as long as I can remember I've wanted to learn to box. I mean not to fight against someone but just me and the bag, learn how to pack a punch.

I had an epiphany as I walked past a bottleO just now: When I return to France the first things I want to buy are a bottle of Lawson's and some cola for apéro, a block of Chocolat Noir aux Eclats de Fêves de Cacao Caramelisées to go with coffee and this one has just ocured to me, a Gatêau des Rois. Mmmm the meal could be anything if I could just have these.

17 Septembre 2006

Brian harris is an extraordinary artist! His work exposed at the Dalby Art Show over the weekend was amazing, the boats in the harbor (I forget the actual names) both in shades of grey and by moonlight were captivating in their serenity. Just to have these works of art in a room would be enough to bring peace to a troubled mind.

Brian Hobson's photographs on canvas were also intriguing.

Restlessness has become the norm of my days. Even when I'm away I feel the urge to get away.

Sunny Sunday such a beautiful day, yet only McCafe is open today.
I went looking for a cafe after it started getting cool in the park but nothing was open. Instead of going to McCafe Gesnes and I went for a drive out of town. I saw a sign for Lake Broadwater so went to check it out. I drove past a lovely open space with short green grass almost like a plain. I soon discovered this was Lake Broadwater. Dried out with only the Kangaroos enjoying the afternoon. It is definitely a place to go back to, peaceful.

16 Septembre 2006

The cold has a sensualness to it. You can cuddle up in the cold, snuggle deep into a douna; wrap yourself up in jumpers and scarves; feel the warmth of your body, safe and secure beneath the layers.

For a while you're on top of the world, confident, happy, it doesn't matter what others think, you just want to sing and move to the music, no one can bring you down. And then something happens or you see something that you knew you eventually would. You spiral down immediately, wanting nothing better than to drown your illogical sorrows in whiskey.

Sometimes people scare me, I need to back away because they remind me of Patrick. It's weird how easy it is for me to trust people, but betray that trust and no matter how hard I work to forgive, the damage is done, things will never be the same again.

The "Khaki Jumper"; Dan from Battlefields of Britain appears to not have many jumpers for he mainly wears a khaki woolen jumper with a zipper in the front. This jumper is a masterpiece. (sighs)

15 Septembre 2006

My whole life I've wanted to fit in, maybe that's the wrong way round. People should fit me instead because I am truely awesome just as I am.

14 Septembre 2006

Had to go down to 2nd gear on the Warrego Hwy this morning because some idiot wanted to overtake a group of cyclists when there wasn't enough room and he didn't have enough acceleration. Bloody male drivers!!! You'd have thought people would have been more careful on that stretch after what happened yesterday.

I've been in Dalby since 9h30 this morning (left Brissy at 6am) so I could get the tyres changed on Gesnes. I've been to the gym, had a walk around, ate Red Rooster for lunch (Why do I always order more than I can eat??), had another walk around and ended up at the park. I still have 2hrs till I start work at 4h.

The boss is getting cranky cause I need 2 w/ends off in October and another in November, plus the w/end of the Halloween party I still have to work Saturday morning and Sunday close. If I don't get the time off I want I'll just take a sicky. I don't see the point in missing out on things that are important to me for a 4hr shift. I've given up too much of my life for work already, I'd rather get fired.

If I sit in the shade I get cold, if I sit in the sun I get burnt.

If a guy smiles at you when you walk past smile back you idiot!!!!!

There were 3 guys with their minder at the gym this morning, now they've just arrived at the park where I am. The wind has picked up and it's getting cold again. I kind of wish I'd grabbed a jumper from my car but my gym bag is heavy enough as it is.

13 Septembre 2006

5 years today.

Spent most of today making Franky and Simon's engagement invitations today. While Franky cut and glued I wrote out each invitation by hand. Not a good thing to do this while watching a movie, very distracting. Didn't end up getting to the envelopes though.

12 Septembre 2006

No time today :)

11 Septembre 2006

Am I an embarassing person? No I don't think so. A little over confident maybe. So what if I called out Simon's name (repeatedly) in Spotlight when we couldn't find him? He showed up in the end didn't he?

Get a grip - seriously 3 meals in 2 days and unable to finish any of them? portions people, portions.

10 Septembre 2006

I have never considered myself to be someone who bored easily, but at work I do. Having not much to do can be a bane, but it can also be a good thing; the mind has time to wander and create.

9 Septembre 2006

I'm glad I've never tried or wanted to try hard drugs because I think I have a very addictive temperament.
For almost 2 months I had been pretty much coke and coffee free (down from a 1.25Ltr bottle and 2 or 3 large coffees per day), but 2 weeks ago I had a fatal cup of strong instant espresso coffee, I just wanted more, more, more and had about 5 cups before I left for work where I bought ice coffees. For 3 days I felt the buzz and the need for another cup like a compulsion.
The same thing tends to happen with alcohol, once I start I just want more and more until I practically pass out or hurl. If I didn't have to drive to work or be clear headed I could quite happily drink all day long, although if I'm on my own I couldn't guarantee that I'd be able to pace myself. It's actually quite a frightening thought.

8 Septembre 2006

Notes to self:

1) Be prepared to put the lid back on the coke bottle as soon as you add the berocca -> it fizzes

2) Watch what you're doing at work. You may not be aware of them but customers can see you singing and dancing.

Went to the Mirage tonight after work. A bit slow on the uptake, but hey I went there to dance because I was restless, so that's just what I did. A few people came up from time to time in the begining but it took a while for others to be constantly on the dancefloor. I left at midnight again so I could manage a few hours sleep before I had to get up and face the long drive back into town in order to fit in a gym session before work.

August 2006 - star

I am a star, and don't you know it :p 

Mind at rest

Have dicovered that "manchot" really dans mean a person with either 1 arm or armless. My poem does still makes sense :)Yay

7 Septembre 2006

Today I wrote 2 scenes for a prologue, I need to write it out properly but I've pretty much gone through step by step what I want the characters to do. Of course I'm not going to write that all here, it might actually be good :p

6 Septembre 2006

Isn't it sad how I just really don't care.

5 Septembre 2006

To take a chance or not? ...

People think I'm a nice, quiet, sedate girl but I'm not really. At least not in my mind. I change mood everyday and want to be someone different, sometimes sweet and childlike, sometimes elegant, most times though I want to let my hair down and have some fun. Then there's also the times that I just wanna be a bitch. If anyone knew just how bold and shocking I would be if I had the guts people would probably run a mile.

4 Septembre 2006

Ok, so when was I supposed to be able to write anything today?

Spent my day with Shantell and Meg shopping for and making Engagement party invitations; had dinner with Simon and chatted to Blue; then visited Christine on close.

3 Septembre 2006

Life is fear. Fear can cripple us or make us stronger. We detach ourselves from the pain and run as far as is possible. In moments of weakness our mask falls and we become vulnerable. It's then time to make a choice: stay alone and wallow in the pain or seek out others and bury the memories once again beneath the mask. When the time comes we may need to make another decision: tell someone and suffer the humiliation and judgement of others or keep quiet. Because no matter what anyones says they will always believe it's your fault. You must have asked for it.

Time does not heal all wounds, we heal ourselves.

We instinctively protect those who are weaker than ourselves.

2 Septembre 2006

Best Ad on TV: Golders

1er Septembre 2006

(Ok I cheated a little and wrote these last night)

"Que desirez vous Madame?"
"Moi, je voudrais votre tête. La mienne m'enuie."
(besoin de charicature: 1 femme avec las tête qui ronfle et l'autre pleine d'idées)

When the air is hot, the end is near,
Close your eyes, no need to fear.

Pliff, plouff, plaff,
Je viens de faire une gaffe. :0

Allo? Allo? Qui est là?
A l'aide, au secours, le manchot est là!
Le manchot tu dit?
Mais oui, mais oui!!
Il n'a pas de mains, te fait pas de souci.
Il tiens un couteau avec son peid,
... (need line)
Avec son pied tu dit?
Mais oui, mais oui!!
Alors prends lui-le, te fait pas de souci.
Avec quoi je le prend? Je n'ai pas de mains.
Un manchot toi aussi?
Mais oui, mais oui!!
...

(the 2 handless people end up being the same person, need to find out correct word for person with no hands, wikipedia is only giving penguin as translation)

A Whole Month of Randomness

In a bid to combat the mental inactivity at work I have set myself a quest this month.

SEPTEMBER QUEST: must write at least 1 blog entry per day on any topic.

(True conundrum: How random can the thoughts of a Chontie be over a 1 month period?)